As a writer,I find myself disgusted and defeated with how little interest there is in my blog. No,I am not remotely interesting. That is why it is in the mental health niche. Surely SOMEONE must relate????
Worse,this is year 11 doing this blog and I have ONE loyal follower/friend. One! After 11 years!
What the fuck am I doing wrong? I don’t need popular. I NEED connection. I NEED loyalty. I crave interaction. Comments are like unicorns even when I get likes.
I know,needy. Pathetic. Have some damn dignity and accept you suck,your writing sucks,and no one cares. And stop with the (seeming) self pity.
I am frustrated,damn it.
Yes,I am too wordy. People hate long posts. And I seem trapped in a cycle that never changes,it must just be my lousy personality. And hello,Niki,no one can follow your unfocused ranting.
Honestly,I would be ok with even 3 ride or die readers. I make do with the limited shallow response I get on social media. I am not being unrealistic. Just some loyalty.
I am a mess right now. Another 2 a.m. wake up. Twisting stomach issues. Heart pounding from everything on my plate. Had another rocky day with Ben. He said I only stay around as his mom “for the money”. What money? I get food stamps. That is it. Omg,the child is a hate spewing machine. And I am the sole target.
I just don’t get why I can’t connect on wordpress. I try to follow and read other blogs. Comment. I have tried brief gratitude posts. Inspirational.memes. I tried humor. Why won’t people LIKE me?
Yeah. I never cared about that. My mental state is pretty dire that this bothers me.
Just so frustrated.
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